Life is shit: literally. I don't know about you, but I shit multiple times every day. I hate doing it every time. Life is a cruel joke. We do the same shit every day. It's so boring.
I have become convinced that it is an act of cruelty for a person to bring people or animals into this fucked-up world. I hate life. I want to die. I'd gladly take a pill if it would kill me, peacefully and painlessly, in my sleep tonight. But if I kill myself, it will probably be much more painful, and messy, than that.
Should I chug antifreeze?
Should I jump?
Should I hang?
Perhaps a combination of antifreeze and jumping or hanging. Maybe the antifreeze will give me the courage I need to jump or hang myself. Once I drink enough antifreeze, I'm fucked. I might as well jump or hang.
I've been listening to a lot of Nirvana lately. I recently saw a documentary about Kurt Cobain called Montage of Heck. I've lived a lot longer than he did. I feel it too. What does it say about life that he killed himself as a wealthy 27-year-old rock star?
I have become convinced that it is an act of cruelty for a person to bring people or animals into this fucked-up world. I hate life. I want to die. I'd gladly take a pill if it would kill me, peacefully and painlessly, in my sleep tonight. But if I kill myself, it will probably be much more painful, and messy, than that.
Should I chug antifreeze?
Should I jump?
Should I hang?
Perhaps a combination of antifreeze and jumping or hanging. Maybe the antifreeze will give me the courage I need to jump or hang myself. Once I drink enough antifreeze, I'm fucked. I might as well jump or hang.
I've been listening to a lot of Nirvana lately. I recently saw a documentary about Kurt Cobain called Montage of Heck. I've lived a lot longer than he did. I feel it too. What does it say about life that he killed himself as a wealthy 27-year-old rock star?
life is shitty, true, but I try to tell me to fight knowing that nothing has sense,and thats just great, no names, no money, no fame, just what I feel is ok with me.
ReplyDeleteI used to ask me this, well if tomorrow Im gonna kill me what should I do today?, to breathe is a good start.
Fuerza y animo!!
Thanks, D. I don't want to kill myself, but, as I've mentioned here before, life is a nightmare for me. I apply for jobs, but no one gives me any. Soon enough, my choices could be suicide or homelessness.
ReplyDeletesure you will find the way,
ReplyDeleteeach day a new try
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jjeKWrGhxM
Thanks, D.
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