Plans

If I'm finally able to kill myself, these are some potential plans.  The first is to bring a bottle of acetaminophen and a water bottle full of antifreeze to a nearby bridge.  I'll find a discreet spot to eat a lot of acetaminophen and wash it down with antifreeze.  Then, knowing that both acetaminophen and antifreeze deaths are extremely painful, I'm hoping that knowledge would give me the courage to jump off the bridge.  I'd be fucked anyway, so I might as well.  It only takes a moment of courage (or insanity) to jump to one's death. 
Another plan has me putting my head on a rail so a train wheel can crush it.  That takes some kind of courage or insanity, though.  Although, again, a toxic diet might help me find the courage or insanity.  There is a place where I walk, along the Eric Canal, that is close to train tracks, and a lot of trains pass by there.
Hanging myself was the first method I thought of.  But I've tried to hang myself before, and it didn't work out.  Success depends on getting the logistics right, or you can end up on your toes, like I did.  However, young children have hanged themselves, and, if they can do it, so can I.